Well, I have mourned the loss of a relationship I always wanted as a child myself with a mother, my mom died when I was 7, & as a mother with a daughter. My first child I adopted out, I felt unworthy of her, unable to give her all she needed & all I wanted her to have. It nearly killed me to go on living without her but we are reunited & stay in touch. Still, hardly the same. Now, her little sister, my 16 yr old is leaving to go live with her father. It is emotionally crushing but I am coming to terms with it. She has always been Daddy's little girl & I'm thankful she has that relationship, I've always been a tad jealous I guess, I want the mom & daughter bond but maybe that will come later. I hope.
Today my 3 yr old actually had matching shoes. Today I called the appropriate people to have my father's flag held out for me after the holiday ceremony in which it will be flown at the cemetery. Today I actually got laundry caught up, folded & mostly put away. Today I enjoyed the sunshine for a moment or two, went to parent-teacher conferences for 2 boys & got glowing comments & mementos to melt any mom's heart. Today, I also accidentally took my morning medicine twice because I forgot I'd already taken it the 1st time. UGH. Considering I was medicated enough to tranquilize a rather incredibly large horse, I got a lot done! And, did so with no migraine & very little back pain! hm, no, no, I guess it's not a good idea. I think I'm going to have to make a chart or something to check off when i take my medicine. I'm the 98 yr old woman I tell you, all that's missing is my walker, incontinence pads & gray hair. Let's not hope those things follow any time soon. I still want to color my hair for the hell of it, not cause I NEED to!
So, during the parent-teacher conferences there was a book fair going on. My 7 yr old got a Pokemon book ( of course) & my 6 yr old got a Spongebob book (of course) & I got a computer spelling/word game for all of us. As we leave the "Book Fair" my 6 yr old asks, "Now do we go to the carnival?" I had to explain it was a book fair, not a fair with rides like a carnival. Luckily his delight with the book & game kept him from fussing too much over the lack of carnival rides & cotton candy.
Once home my 7 yr old informed me, "Mom, you know we need more food - we're out of cookies!" Good heavens we might starve without cookies in the house don't ya know! Hubby has been given a short grocery list since he has the ATM card (scary thought) & works next to the store. Bless his heart, he's working a side job after his regular job tonight too so who knows when he'll be home! But, then he gets a nice holiday weekend.
I hope all of you have a nice holiday weekend as well. Be Blessed Dear Readers, be blessed.
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